Tag: mental-health
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2026 – secrets, surgery & surrender
On the ordinary afternoon of 18th December 2025, I broke a bone in my right footpad. This disrupted my fitness journey, my independence, my social life (not that there was much to begin with). Most importantly, this put me at the mercy of others, quite a bit. I had to learn to how to ask…
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Late 2025 – Shifting priorities, Lord Shiva & new setbacks
This is a humble attempt to capture the inexplicable internal and interpersonal events that took my breath away September’2025 onwards, after the Arpit & Darsh chapters of my dating app career All through June & most of July, I was trying to organise & handle my seesaw feelings about Arpit, the toxic ‘harmless’ ‘hot &…
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Vipassana (Jan 19-30th 2025)
(A long overdue post, about my first Vipassana retreat) “Vipassana meditation is a form of mindfulness meditation that comes from the original teachings of Gautam Buddha. It is a way of observing oneself without judgment, and it is said to be helpful in achieving enlightenment. Usually, it’s done over the course of 10 days.” – says Dr. Google.…
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The Last of My Bumblebees
This post is dedicated to the last few (dating app) contrasting men I interacted with, who turned out to be major catalysts – pivoting me out of this realm of half-connections: Chin, my age, a married and poly classy gentleman, started feeling like an old friend to me: Chin reached out to me on Hinge.…
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Life after Aya (2023-24)
An account of the rollercoaster-like life-events post my 2023 Ayahuasca retreat: What awaited me after coming back home was a series of unimaginable life-events that were a mixed bag – some excruciating, some shocking, some delightful, surprising, catalysing, isolating, heartbreaking – some everything all at once. I will do my best to write about them…
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Ayahuasca Again (Oct’2023) Part1
An account of the second time I got to sit in Ayahuasca ceremonies (October’ 2023): In mid 2023, it seemed like I would be getting another chance at sitting with the Ayahuasca energy, with the same shaman and team that I sat with in 2020. I was excited. This time things were vastly different from…
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Me, MaryJane & I
A Story of my budding relationship with MaryJane: Ever since I have come in touch with plant medicine, a journey that began with Ayahuasca, I speak to a Higher Power – usually I refer to Her as Mumma (Mumma Aya) and ask her for help when I need it, ask her for advice or answers…
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Mind on Magic Mushrooms (1)
About my intermittent meetings with Magic Mushrooms (2021-ongoing): About a year after sitting with Ayahuasca, I decided to explore the realm of psilocybin / magic mushrooms. I was back in Bombay after being away to my hometown for months. COVID was still out there, terrorising the world. I had asked around in my Aya circle,…
