Tag: life
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2026 – secrets, surgery & surrender
On the ordinary afternoon of 18th December 2025, I broke a bone in my right footpad. This disrupted my fitness journey, my independence, my social life (not that there was much to begin with). Most importantly, this put me at the mercy of others, quite a bit. I had to learn to how to ask…
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Late 2025 – Shifting priorities, Lord Shiva & new setbacks
This is a humble attempt to capture the inexplicable internal and interpersonal events that took my breath away September’2025 onwards, after the Arpit & Darsh chapters of my dating app career All through June & most of July, I was trying to organise & handle my seesaw feelings about Arpit, the toxic ‘harmless’ ‘hot &…
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The Last of My Bumblebees
This post is dedicated to the last few (dating app) contrasting men I interacted with, who turned out to be major catalysts – pivoting me out of this realm of half-connections: Chin, my age, a married and poly classy gentleman, started feeling like an old friend to me: Chin reached out to me on Hinge.…
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My Bumblebees (3)
This post continues to talk about the men who have been a valuable part of my tentative explorations of the dating app world: Sourabh, 38, the kind of man one needs to be wary of, the ‘married’ kind: A cautionary tale. Of course, our conversation lasted for only 2-3 hours, but still the digital world can…
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My BumbleBees (2)
A continuation of my learning experiences with dating apps and men: AYUB, 29, curious boy who eagerly listened to my answers to every question he asked me, a devotee of this goddess (me), over-eager to meat (not a typo): When I first came across Ayub’s profile on Bumble, I giggled at his bio. These were…
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Bald, Bold & My BumbleBees (1)
Anjuri 3.0 – Turning 40 in 2024: This post is about all the big changes that have shaped the second half of 2024 and in hindsight all these changes seem connected to my Ayahuasca ceremonies in October’2023 – ceremonies that left me agog, aghast, lost, and uncertain about the future. However, I can now understand…
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A Free WOMAN: Shaving my Head in 2024
How I came to feel more feminine than I ever have once I shaved my head & other ways in which this act has impacted my world(view): Hair is such an integral part of feeling feminine – at least that’s what we, both men & women, are subliminally and directly fed from the moment we…
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Life after Aya (2023-24)
An account of the rollercoaster-like life-events post my 2023 Ayahuasca retreat: What awaited me after coming back home was a series of unimaginable life-events that were a mixed bag – some excruciating, some shocking, some delightful, surprising, catalysing, isolating, heartbreaking – some everything all at once. I will do my best to write about them…
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Post-ceremony ‘Process’ (2)
One of the big missteps I took back then, right after coming back from my first Ayahuasca retreat was to stay in the mind, not grounding myself to this reality. All I wished to do was to escape. To escape back into the DMT world, with its dark tunnels of snake skin, with its dimly…
