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The Last of My Bumblebees
This post is dedicated to the last few (dating app) contrasting men I interacted with, who turned out to be major catalysts – pivoting me out of this realm of half-connections: Chin, my age, a married and poly classy gentleman, started feeling like an old friend to me: Chin reached out to me on Hinge.…
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My Bumblebees (3)
This post continues to talk about the men who have been a valuable part of my tentative explorations of the dating app world: Sourabh, 38, the kind of man one needs to be wary of, the ‘married’ kind: A cautionary tale. Of course, our conversation lasted for only 2-3 hours, but still the digital world can…
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My BumbleBees (2)
A continuation of my learning experiences with dating apps and men: AYUB, 29, curious boy who eagerly listened to my answers to every question he asked me, a devotee of this goddess (me), over-eager to meat (not a typo): When I first came across Ayub’s profile on Bumble, I giggled at his bio. These were…
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Bald, Bold & My BumbleBees (1)
Anjuri 3.0 – Turning 40 in 2024: This post is about all the big changes that have shaped the second half of 2024 and in hindsight all these changes seem connected to my Ayahuasca ceremonies in October’2023 – ceremonies that left me agog, aghast, lost, and uncertain about the future. However, I can now understand…
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A Free WOMAN: Shaving my Head in 2024
How I came to feel more feminine than I ever have once I shaved my head & other ways in which this act has impacted my world(view): Hair is such an integral part of feeling feminine – at least that’s what we, both men & women, are subliminally and directly fed from the moment we…
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Life after Aya (2023-24)
An account of the rollercoaster-like life-events post my 2023 Ayahuasca retreat: What awaited me after coming back home was a series of unimaginable life-events that were a mixed bag – some excruciating, some shocking, some delightful, surprising, catalysing, isolating, heartbreaking – some everything all at once. I will do my best to write about them…
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Ayahuasca Again (Oct’23) Part2
(Contd.) 3 Aya ceremonies I took part in, in Oct’2023 and the aftermath: SHARING THE GIFT OF MY STORY & ART WITH FELLOW SEEKERS: One evening, I managed to have all my fellow seekers at the retreat gathered in one place, after we had had a short little hike as a group. I nervously spoke…
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Ayahuasca Again (Oct’2023) Part1
An account of the second time I got to sit in Ayahuasca ceremonies (October’ 2023): In mid 2023, it seemed like I would be getting another chance at sitting with the Ayahuasca energy, with the same shaman and team that I sat with in 2020. I was excited. This time things were vastly different from…
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Me, MaryJane & I
A Story of my budding relationship with MaryJane: Ever since I have come in touch with plant medicine, a journey that began with Ayahuasca, I speak to a Higher Power – usually I refer to Her as Mumma (Mumma Aya) and ask her for help when I need it, ask her for advice or answers…
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Mind on Magic Mushrooms (2)
More Lessons from Magic Mushrooms: There was this one time when I took 1g mushrooms (in capsule form), at evening time, in Kanpur. I had my privacy and would remain undisturbed. But I made a few key mistakes on this occasion and suffered the well-deserved consequences. Firstly, I had not fasted for 8 hours like…
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Mind on Magic Mushrooms (1)
About my intermittent meetings with Magic Mushrooms (2021-ongoing): About a year after sitting with Ayahuasca, I decided to explore the realm of psilocybin / magic mushrooms. I was back in Bombay after being away to my hometown for months. COVID was still out there, terrorising the world. I had asked around in my Aya circle,…
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Post-Ceremony Process (6) – Talking to Her
One thing that became a regular part of my routine life, after ingesting Ayahuasca, is The Conversation with Her. Yes, I frequently speak with Her, to Her, at Her. And after this many years (FOUR!), I do believe and understand it in my bones – SHE IS LISTENING and RESPONDING. All the time. In the…
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Post-Ceremony Process (5)… The Art
I have been told by multiple people, people from different walks of life, people with varied spiritual designations, people who have walked through my life in the last few years that I must Write, I must Write, that I am slated to be an author. Well, I haven’t published any books yet, but I did…
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Post Ceremony Process (4)… The Art
Before I begin with this crucial piece of my journey with Ayahuasca, I must briefly describe/ re-iterate a pivotal event from my childhood. The memory lacks details like my exact age, or the before and after of the event. It’s like my brain blocked it out to survive. Don’t know. I was a little girl…
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Post-Ceremony Process (3) – The Typhoon & Dog-Love
Looking back, it is very interesting to me – the kinds of themes I was experiencing in my ‘integration’ process post the 3-ceremony retreat with Ayahuasca, the grandmother energy in March 2020. It seems now that all the situations I was faced with in the 3 months after (and of course the next 4 years…
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Post-ceremony ‘Process’ (2)
One of the big missteps I took back then, right after coming back from my first Ayahuasca retreat was to stay in the mind, not grounding myself to this reality. All I wished to do was to escape. To escape back into the DMT world, with its dark tunnels of snake skin, with its dimly…
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Post-ceremony ‘Process’ – the main thing really… (1)
Life after leaving the ceremonial space, returning to the sacred mundane human life: Its been close to 4 years since I returned home post my first set of Ayahuasca ceremonies, and even though I have well-documented journals to dip my toes into from that time, Today is still a long way away from then. In…
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3rd Ayahuasca Ceremony (2020) – Part 1
The events of 10.3.2020: It was a day ceremony, the only day ceremony amongst the 3 ceremonies at our retreat. We were to start early in the morning. It was the day of Holi (Indian festival where we play with flowers, colours and water with family and friends). We were mostly assembled and seated in…
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2nd Ayahuasca Ceremony (2020) – Part 2
I didn’t have to wait for long. Ayahuasca took hold of me within minutes of drinking the second cup. I saw a little girl child, a toddler, standing up in a crib, crying/ howling for her mother. I sensed that that child was Me. Little Anjuri. I, the physical human, began crying too. Big tears.…
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